On the Verge...or in the Verge? On the Edge...or on Edge?
For the moments that I have been finding myself arriving at, and sharing what I am about to, if you continue reading, put out there, am certain of the fact that I choose to remain anonymous for the right reasons. And it is for the most part, selfish purposes, which is because I use this outlet as personal therapy, and in a completely backwards approach to not wanting anyone to actually read it, which makes it comically odd as to why I choose to share it with anyone in the world who happen to stumble across any of the shamefully plastered links to this very website, for them to do the thing that I am saying I don't really want anyone to do! This entire concept shouldn't make sense, and if we look at it logically, does not make sense, but there is another side to this that everyone should understand. Because much like the way we...yes I do it too!.. can hide behind digital avatars and so feel a degree more comfortable than if we were there in person, flesh and all. That has an impact on who we are, and how we behave, of which has positives and negatives, individual dependant of course, but that liberation of separating self from self can pave ways for the good. Example being, Esoteric Student is just me, the cold, hard, blunt facts of my experience, with complete and total honesty, zero egos, zero ignorance, and zero all the other things that that effect my behaviour, positively or negatively. It is just the ignorance of zero ignorance, in yet another paradoxical conundrum that seems to be my theme. If a side effect of all this happens to be someone reading this and can find any value amongst the ramblings of my ND-self, then that is why I know you also understand, and I'm not alone.
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All that just to say that currently, and the past few months have been some of the most challenging, difficult and paradigm shifting experiences of my life, and while it is all still unfolding, I am noting, logging, and preparing to write all about it. This is simply an update and check in to say I'm still here and that I am at the Edge, and on the Verge of some truly profound turning points, a great reset of sorts. So watch this space...
